Somthing is missing
School. Basketball. Work. Life.
At some point in all of these things I have felt discontent. Usually expressed with a “this sucks” but there was always something deeper to it. Now, as I think about it, I see that I was not getting the most out of it. Something was missing.
I reflect on these past experiences now because I feel the same discontent; I feel unfulfilled.
Perhaps I am a malcontent or perhaps I am an idealist. There is a vision in my mind of how it should be and the actuality of that vision is lacking.
Perhaps this is not where we belong and these feelings are little reminders that heaven is our True Home.
So, in the meantime, what then?
I want God to use me is great ways. I want to do so much but it doesn’t happen. Perhaps when God is using me, in whatever way He so chooses, it is a great way because it is from Greatness. So then my prayer has been: God, use me. Whether menial or magnificent, use me to glorify You.
a Heightened awareness 